Normal Life… With a Heart on Standby
Your life is normal… but also not.
You’re doing the same things every day—work, laundry, dinner, errands…
but in the back of your mind, everything feels like it could change at any moment.
The house is ready.
The room is ready.
I’m ready.
But nothing is happening.
And that’s the weird part.
Because on the outside, everything looks the same.
But on the inside, it feels like you’re just… waiting.
Waiting for a call.
Waiting for a life change.
Waiting for a child you don’t even know yet—but already made space for.
It’s this in-between phase no one really talks about.
You’re approved… but you’re not actively parenting yet.
You’ve said yes… but nothing has been placed in your arms.
So you go to work.
You clean the house.
You make dinner like any other day.
But there’s always that thought sitting in the background…
what if today is the day?
I still check my phone way too much 😅
I still overthink every unknown number
I still wonder if I somehow missed the call
At one point I literally called to make sure they had my number right…
because clearly the only logical explanation was that they just couldn’t reach me 😅
Because when you’re waiting like this, your brain will come up with anything to make sense of the silence.
I know it’ll happen when it’s supposed to…
and I trust that.
But man… this part?
This quiet waiting part?
It’s harder than I expected.
Until then… we wait.
I’m trying to trust that just because nothing is happening right now…
doesn’t mean it won’t… and that there’s a bigger plan, even if I can’t see it yet.
Until we meet again, have a blessed day.