Holding Space for Someone New
No one warned me that after getting approved… the hardest part would be the waiting.
I thought I would feel relieved.
Happy.
Like, okay—we made it.
Man… was I wrong.
I’ve been checking my phone like a kid asking if they can get out of timeout 😅
Every notification makes my heart jump a little… and then it’s just nothing.
I’m just ending my third week of waiting.
And I know—three weeks doesn’t sound long. You’re right… it’s not.
But it’s not really about the time.
It’s that feeling… like when you’re all dressed and ready for something important, and now you’re just standing there waiting on someone else to get ready.
You’re ready.
Your home is ready.
Your heart is ready.
And then… radio silence.
The anticipation can be unbearable some days.
And then your mind starts doing that thing…
Trying to make sense of the silence.
Do they even have my number right in the system?
Am I actually “active”?
Are we being seen when a placement comes up?
You start questioning things you didn’t even think twice about before.
Some moments I feel excited—like this could be the day.
Other moments… I’m just tired of waiting.
No one really talks about this part.
They talk about the training, the home checks, getting approved…
But not the quiet after.
Learning to Sit With the Waiting
The part where nothing is happening, but everything could change at any second.
If you’re in this stage too… you’re not doing anything wrong.
This part is just hard.
I know the call will come when it’s supposed to.
And when it does… I’ll be ready.
Ready to love the child who comes through our door—no matter where they’re coming from or what they’ve been through.
Because foster care isn’t easy.
These kids are leaving everything familiar and walking into the unknown.
So if I can do my part right now…
it’s learning how to be patient in the waiting.
And maybe that’s what this season is really teaching me.
Not to rush it…
just to be ready when it’s time.
Until we meet again have a blessed day and a Happy Easter.